Sunday, August 29, 2004
and yes.
Friday, August 27, 2004
=)
Thursday, August 26, 2004
and it was absolutely horrible.
Monday, August 23, 2004
peace and serenity
Sunday, August 22, 2004
And when she walks,
Friday, August 20, 2004
for it is giving that we receive;
Thursday, August 19, 2004
fight or flight.
Tuesday, August 17, 2004
i guess what im totally ever interested in is schl.
Sunday, August 15, 2004
random images racing through my mind.
Friday, August 13, 2004
and finally.
Thursday, August 12, 2004
yay. lets take a look at my hours of sleep for the week.
Wednesday, August 11, 2004
the greatest distance isnt between pluto and the sun,
Tuesday, August 10, 2004
a wound that will never heal;
Saturday, August 07, 2004
Why did two lovers
Friday, August 06, 2004
its nice to know that you were there
Wednesday, August 04, 2004
bleh. juz woke up. hehh. *.*
Tuesday, August 03, 2004
it is said there are angels
Monday, August 02, 2004
shoosh. im tired.
i have finally finished packing for obs.
which is tmr. hahahahah.
man. im nuts. packing on the eve of my camp.
oh well. heck. lol.
i'll see civilization again on friday.
love yall.
etched at 11:50 PM
whats black before you use it, red when its in use, and white when ur done with it?
charcoal.
if a black house is made of charcoal, a red house of brick, a brown house of mud, whats a green house made of?
glass.
hows it possible that a lady shoots a man, hangs him up, places him underwater for more than 5 minutes, and is still able to go out with him moments later?
shes a photographer.
lets say ur freezing and on the verge of dying from the cold. youve a matchstick, and theres a fireplace, a candle, and an oil lamp. which would you light first?
the matchstick.
why are lame jokes lame?
cuz theyre told by lame pple.
a gun has a range of 1m. hows it that a hunter can use that gun to kill a bird 100m away?
the gun's 99m long.
whats brown, usually around 15cm in length, and is sticky?
a stick.
how dyou confuse a maht (malay ah beng.? short form for ahmad.)?
put him in a spherical room and ask him go relac one corner.
why cant you get to people's park from outram park?
cuz theres no linkin park.
what dyou call a gingerbreadman with an injured leg?
limp bizkit.
etched at 8:52 PM
for nothing went right.
trudged home with spirits dampened.
with a blank mind.
lifeless eyes.
anger and rage.
but depression and helplessness at the same time.
head hung low
climbed stair after stair.
reached home, only to find myself standing by the ledge.
looked towards the sky,
closed my eyes.
and i felt the arms of death embrace me
as the ground rushed quickly to meet me.
etched at 9:30 PM
in the dead of night.
shattered by an ear-piercing scream that tore into the night.
silhoutte against the door.
knife in hand.
stained red,
dripping with blood.
swift and agile,
a silent killer.
fiery contempt ablaze within eyes of hatred.
movement with great haste, aggression, and perception.
in for the kill,
out in seconds for getaway.
dont give time for reaction.
when you go in, go in hard.
if you think you cant accomplish it, dont bother trying;
failed attempts are useless.
im coming for you. watch out.
etched at 10:15 PM
All the wind blows and the angels sing.
She doesn't notice me
Cause she is watchin' wrestling
Creamin' over tough guys
Listenin' to rap metal
Turntables in her eyes
It's like a bad movie
She is lookin' through me
If you were me, then you'd be
Screamin' "Someone shoot me"
As I fail miserably,
Tryin' to get the girl all the bad guys want.
She's the girl all the bad guys want.
etched at 10:52 AM
it is in pardoning that we are pardoned;
and it is in dying that we are born into eternal life.
me want eternal life.
etched at 11:00 PM
i'd rather die fighting rather than die a coward, running.
they say
that i must learn to kill before i can feel safe.
then i might as well kill my heart since i crumble when it breaks.
etched at 10:20 PM
i talk so much about schl. tests. results. hw.
wtf.
im such a. nerd.
i guess i piss pple off, talking about schl all the time. bleh.
cool. chill. frozen. numb.
heart so cold,
oblivious to feeling.
im looking at you
and i see my life
passing before my eyes.
with wounds cut so deep
these scars wont fade,
time wont heal.
i dunno what im saying. lol.
etched at 9:51 PM
reflection off a blade.
and i see blood.
life. and death. walking hand in hand.
please. stop it.
it pains.
in a frenzy
it all happened so fast
whats before is past.
get a grip over yourself.
black. and white; grey.
nostalgy.
but i like past, damnit.
dont lie to me;
i can see through you.
dont fall for me;
i wont catch you.
dont cry over me;
im not worth it.
let me lie;
i want to live my dream.
shatter my heart;
and i will fall.
pain, i will experience.
but express it, not.
pretence will cover.
you. will not discover.
*shrugs*
etched at 10:33 PM
the torment has ended.
but im sickkk.
shiet la. i think i didnt get enuff sleep.
bio and ss were pretty alright lah.
bio was alright except for the life sci part. hahah.
i guessed my way through that 9 marks. lol.
but hopefully can scrap an a1 lah. i hopee.
ss was pretty easy. exactly what i prepared for. wheeee. =D
then i came home wanted to sleeeeep.
then i remembered there was tootion!
blehhh.
then i quickly did tootion hw.
had tootion at 5.
teacher was so nice she let me finish at 6.
the next tootion then do 2 hours.
cuz i was really too tired liao.
after tootion, straight away lie on my bed and zzzzzzzzzzzzz.
woke up at 830 cuz mom wondered why i didnt go down for dinner.
told her i was so tired.
so i juz slept right through dinner.
then ah ma came up to my room at abt 1030.
for like, the first time in history she came up. haha.
woke me up cuz she wanted me to drink birds nest.
i was so tired, i didnt wanna budge.
but i guess i think i better take it la.
cold not nice liao.
so i pulled myself outta bed.
took the bird's nest.
ate dinner at 11. and then had a beeeg plate of apples and watermelon. wahaha.
and now im blogging away.
but then i think i gotta go sleep soon
got eng tootion at 8 tmr.
BLEH.
guess ill juz slack arnd now.
byeee.
etched at 11:24 PM
monday slept at 12, woke up at 6. finish off schl hw.--6
tuesday slept at 12, woke up at 4. revise chem and emaths.--3
wednesday slept at 12, woke up 330. revise phy and amaths--3.5
today gonna sleep at 1230 mugging bio. getting up at 3 for ss. -- 2.5
total hours = 6 + 3 + 3.5 + 2.5
= 15
whoo. 15 hours in 4 days. im gooood.
may the heavens above keep me going.
let me last for one more day.
Come Holy Spirit,
Replace any tension within me
with the peace that only you can give.
Replace any disturbance within me
with a sacred calm.
Replace any fear or anxiety within me
with a quiet confidence.
Replace any darkness within me
with your gentle light.
Replace any cold within me
with your loving warmth.
Replace any emptiness within me
with a sense of purpose.
Grant me a calm, clear focussed mind;
a keen memory with a sharp attention to detail;
and the fighting spirit of a true Lasallian.
Dull the edge of my pride.
Sharpen the edge of my humility.
If i should go astray,
bring me back to the right path.
May I truly believe that your grace
is enough for me. Amen.
etched at 8:23 PM
or heaven and hell,
but its when im standing right before you,
and i cant say,
iloveyou.
etched at 7:55 PM
a scar that will never fade;
a love that will never die;
a memory that i will never forget;
a pain that will never ease;
a hope that will never vanish.
i will feed on hope to numb the hunger.
with a razor in hand
it was all too much
body fell fast
ice cold to the touch.
i will fall.
etched at 4:48 PM
End up like strangers
When did we stop seeing eye to eye
Everyday
You took my breath away
But now there's no reply
Only hi, goodbye
Like a dream come true
When it was me and you
Now I just don't know why
We say hi and
Hi and goodbye..
etched at 3:46 AM
thanks for acting like you cared
making me feel like i was the only one
its nice to know we had it all
thanks for watching as i fall
letting me know we were done.
go ahead and ignore me.
i enjoy it. heh.
ignorance is bliss.
phooey.
etched at 11:01 PM
first thing i did when i got home was to hit the sack.
woke up at 4 to do phy and the fecking maths binomial proj.
fck the maths proj lahh.
i spent hours doing the friggin powerpoint and dom ang says if you needed to present using powerpoint, we should have told him earlier so that he can go borrow laptop from the library.
bullshit. hes SUPPOSED to get it. fucktard.
presentation was so screwd lah. ming yuan didnt know anything. hehh.
jeremy at least managed through it. quite natural.
jun zhi was pretty alright. confident enuff at least. =)
then ray and goutham.
binomial probabilty/distribution. wahah. i dun exactly know what it is. lol.
dom ang says its a level stuff. ray is frickin smart man..
hope i did okay lah. i fumbled quite a bit. hehh.
but i forgot to mention alot of stuffs. urgh.
so. anyway.
i skipped maths olympiad since i was like so tired.
even if i go, im prolly gonna fall asleep. lol.
okay, i cant think of anything else to talk about. haha.
etched at 6:31 PM
in the heaven above,
and they shine with the light
of an inner love.
of these things
i had not a clue,
but that was
before i found you.
for in you i've found,
a love that is so right.
it shines all around,
with the brightest of light.
it comes from somewhere,
so deep within,
that it has no beginning
and knows no end.
your love is a light
that brightens up each day,
of all the people
you see on your way.
wherever you go,
or whatever you do,
all see the love
that you have inside you.
that god sent you here,
to a place where you'd be.
sharing such love
with someone like me
is proof for me
that angels exist,
and are filled with a love
that no one can resist.
i thank god each day,
for finding the time,
for looking down on me,
and making you mine.
so yes there are angels
in heaven above.
i know because god
sent me one to love..
let me live my lie.
etched at 10:22 PM
i need to frickin sleep.
been working four hours straight thanks to the fecking binomials proj. screw it.
ugh. and i busted my fingers over the guitar. hehh.
oh wells. mom wants me in bed by 10 today.
juz cuz i told her i didnt wanna eat dinner cuz i was tired.
mann.
oh wells.
schl today was pretty alright i guess..
juz pretty frustrated at amaths.
i cant get a fcking thing right. urghhh.
im so sooo screwd. =(
gonna hafta mug through national day hols.
think thats about it. haha.
i cant remember anything else. too tiered. haah.
goonights.
etched at 9:20 PM